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when dad din wanna talk to me i was unhappy.. now tat he is talkin to me again n finally accepted e fact tat i'm attached.. i tot i shld be happy.. but i'm not.. i tot being in a rls onli involves 2 ppl.. yet now it not onli involves me n my bf.. my parents n his parents r also involved.. when i quarrel wif my bf, my dad has to comment on it.. my bf cal me he will make noise.. he jus keeps nagging n nagging.. it gets me so frustrated n it stresses me out tryin to lessen his comments on my rls..

not onli do i have to bother abt wad my parents say.. i also hv to build a gd rls with his parents n try my best to communicate with them, leave them a gd impression of me.. his dad is ok.. its easy having a convo with him.. its his mom tat is e hard part.. y mus tings b so diff? i tot e rls onli involves me n andy yet now 6 ppl r in it.. or mayb even 7 including his bro..

i have to do my best in buildin up e rls with his parents yet my bf isnt doin aniting to let my parents get to know him better.. each time he has to meet my parents or any of my family member he'l jus try to avoid it.. n give e excuse of them not liking him or tat dey've a bad impression of him.. if he at least put in a bit of effort n show my parents wad kinda person he act is den tings prob won b so diff for me.. at least my parents noe i'm in gd hands.. dey nd not worry.. i noe my dad is strict n seems fierce n it may b bit diff.. but if he's willing to take e first step n let dem noe him better i believe they wld also come to accept him.. he jus tinks tat by checkin on me keeping close tabs on me den things wld b ok.. but he din realise tat it also has an impact on my parents n i'm e one who has to deal wif dem.. of cos i noe i have no right to complain la.. aftall its cos of my wrong doings which led to tis.. i'm not sayin he cant keep tabs on me.. but at least try to do sm PR wif my parents so life won b so hard for me..

my mom jus came to give me a lecture.. hahaha.. how nice is tat.. sae i talk to andy y so rude.. lik quarrelling n y cant i b more humble.. its not tat i'm rude ar.. tis is e way we talk to each other.. we can even anihow scold vulgarities at each other in a joking manner.. n she commented tat we keep quarrelling how r we gonna get married? n tat tis way in future whn we're married how? tis is not e way i wan it to b also wad.. it takes two hands to clap.. e way both of us behave now is cos of how we started off.. how to change now? y cant dey jus leave me alone n let me handle my rls wif andy?? seriously v fan leh.. cannot take it manz.. haiz..

i jus want to be happy.. like every other couple out dere.. isit dat difficult? do i not deserve happiness?

10:17 pm